"I want to be alone and I want people to notice me - both at the same time"
So you’re single
Whatever you do, please do not allow someone to dictate your own happiness. Being single does not mean you’re alone and unhappy it means you’re too fuxxking awesome and good on your own to settle with someone less than whom you deserve. Society needs to let people just be individuals and stop defining people through relationships. Just do you and the right people will come along